Still adjusting

It’s weird. I expected that moving to Dallas would bring with it not a lessening of stress but certainly different types of stress.

Boy, howdy…

Now, when something goes wrong (such as the hole in the wall from when the baby gate broke, or the short in the light switch that threatened to burn the house down, or the disintegrating bath drain pipe that cause Niagara Falls to briefly relocate to the kitchen), I can call someone else to handle it. Phone lines don’t work? Call someone else to fix it. Roof sprung a leak? Someone else takes care of it. (This last one – *KNOCK ON WOOD* – has not happened.)

But somewhere in there, having to make a new process and routine is causing a stress. I’m the luckiest person on the planet that I have the best kids in the history of ever because they really go out of their way to pick up the slack and make sure that things are handled well, often without me directing them to do so. I’m working again, I’m getting in touch with people…

… so where the hell is this nervous tic in my left eyelid coming from?

It’s weird and sudden, and I noticed that I can mitigate it a little if I relax my shoulders, but for the most part, it just pops up randomly and gets my attention. I’d like to know what the trigger is. I seem to be doing so well, so is there something else I’m missing…?

4 Replies to “Still adjusting”

  1. intristin’

    i did notice sun night you seemed less at ease than usual – nothing major, just an underlying sense of tense that I’d not seen other times we’ve hung out – but i didn’t want to say anything – probably something bubbling up to the surface that might make you a little nervous to process … could also just be all the car fumes in the dallas air!

    love,
    Eliz

  2. Yeah… might just be a random muscle spasm that has nothing at all to do with anything. It just is. Maybe your body is just trying to throw you off to see what you do.

    😀

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